For my case, I am not even a control freak but nevertheless I was very anxious during the retreat. My expectation for the retreat was nil, none, zip nothing! I came with nothing at all.
(I am not holy-holy type).

And my concern for the retreat started to develop when I arrived on Friday. Some of our prayer warriors and facilitators could only come on Saturday. Some were not able to make it for the retreat, and we (especially Greg) were counting how many people was available to intercede during the whole session. And it was not much (less than 10 people)! And some even fell sick (added another worry lor).

So I was worried that the "quantity" of people would not be enough to invoke the Holy Spirit to come (yeah I know it sound silly:) But nevertheless God reveals to me again and again that it's only Him who can bring the Holy Spirit! And I believe with God the whole "quantity" measurement is no longer important.

So the night pass, and morning came. And surprisingly I was able to wake up early to wake the rest of the guys (in those Godly hour :p), but of course not all of us were interested to wake up at 5:50 AM. My heart was rejoicing and my soul praised Him, especially during the morning prayer in the chapel.

Never felt so alive and fresh like those moment in the chapel (I guess that the Spirit of God revives all the believers). But the best experience in the chapel was when we prayed together before the baptism in the Spirit (remember the Veni Sancte Spiritus), I was looking at the tabernacle and a sudden feeling prompted me to ask God for help. As I look to the Golden cross, I ask Thee to bring forth all Angels and Saints for God will listen to those who ask Him. And the sharing of vision of Angels and presence of the Lord in tabernacle (by Josey and Clement) were actually the acknowledgement of all that I ask for (So at that time I was 'damn' amazed and surprised that the answer come so quick leh :)

But the best of all experience when I actually received the 'Tongue' during the Reconciliation night, as I asked God to reveal Himself to the participants, and asked Him to say 'Be Not Afraid' to all of them during confession. Now I know how the gift of tongue is actually Real and ever present if I pray with expectant Faith. As the night darkened and confession was still ongoing, I prayed harder and harder, until my whole being praised the Lord in Body and Spirit. That is when I feel my tongue uncontrol and wanna praise God so much that a sudden burst of Tongue is unbearable and continuous (not so loud though, cause most of us there is praying silently). Now I know why Cornellius actually received the Holy Spirit and the gift of Tongue, that is when one being combine with God in Spirit and speak to Him. And I was not surprised when Adam (the last who came at the retreat just before the praying over, and in RCIA) actually received the gift of Tongue, because he asked God Truthfully, and Willfully with expectant Faith (remember the story of the judge bug by the old lady).

So when we interceded during the Baptism in Spirit with whoever that could make it at that time (in Presence about 9 & in Spirit for some other that can't make it), we were actually Having Fun :p, yup literally FUN in praising God our Saviour. And the prophecy that I received during the Reconciliation night -> Zechariah 8 (as I asked God what will happen on Sunday), was actually opened and revealed during the intercession on Sunday, and Greg actually had the same prophecy from Luke 1:67-79 (by Zechariah father of John the Baptist). Never felt so relieved that day for I manage at last to say it.

Many other things happened that encouraged me to stay and enjoy God's love, but probably next time I will tell it :)

Good Night, and God Luv You all
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Jimmy "underattack"